Installing the Thesis Exhibition in 2 days.
Leaving for a month in China in 23 days.
Moving out of my apartment in 21 days.
Where will I be when I return from China?
only God knows that for now.
ahhhhhhhh such delicious ambiguity
well.
one thing is not so delicious.
my cousin at the age of 23, died this weekend from a drug overdose.
and I really, really, badly want to be there with those in my family that I love so much.
I have lost 3 people in my world unexpectedly this year. during grad school insanity.
they make us feel guilty in choosing personal needs over homework assignments.
that is not what life should be about.
it makes me bitter towards this stupid one year intensive grad program.
I am tired of putting my family life on hold for this.
I dont want to regret not going to their funeral.
When else will I say to their sister, their aunts and uncles, grandmother, grandfather. that i love them. that I will walk through this with them. when it will mean the most? now or later?
I am torn. juggling back and forth from my own needs and the needs of others.
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