Triple Cheeseburger Tortilla

so there were days during the school year where we had to do so much, that it really felt like 3 or 4 different days all rolled into one. kinda like a triple cheeseburger rolled into a tortilla is what I'm visualizing. that is today, I am on day three right now. At 7pm I will go to the Jewelry Studio to do my last casting for this summer and I have 4 bugs that will hopefully turn into beautiful bronze works of art. My plan is to make a jungle-nest necklace with the bugs hiding in it. These are some of the parts to the jungle necklace. It will just be a work of art, not really for functional use. I will post a drawing diagram of it, but I dont have time to right now.

Also I finished installing my thesis show this afternoon. yip-pee. God did not create me to draw or see straight, perfect, level lines. I had to rehang the photos 4 times.

Conveniently they are mounted on velcro.

(secret of the trade)

delicious ambiguity

Less than 3 weeks before Im DONE WITH GRAD SCHOOL.

Installing the Thesis Exhibition in 2 days.

Leaving for a month in China in 23 days.

Moving out of my apartment in 21 days.

Where will I be when I return from China?

only God knows that for now.

ahhhhhhhh such delicious ambiguity

well.

one thing is not so delicious.

my cousin at the age of 23, died this weekend from a drug overdose.

and I really, really, badly want to be there with those in my family that I love so much.

I have lost 3 people in my world unexpectedly this year. during grad school insanity.

they make us feel guilty in choosing personal needs over homework assignments.

that is not what life should be about.

it makes me bitter towards this stupid one year intensive grad program.

I am tired of putting my family life on hold for this.

I dont want to regret not going to their funeral.

When else will I say to their sister, their aunts and uncles, grandmother, grandfather. that i love them. that I will walk through this with them. when it will mean the most? now or later?

I am torn. juggling back and forth from my own needs and the needs of others.