im trying to get back down to the ground.
mom's advice is good: whatever you do, don't piss off your professors.
my fantasy right now is dropping all responsibilities and getting a manicure.
the fingernail status is in bad shape.
i dont want to work like this in the future, to carry my job into all areas of my life.
i actually took a break last night, going into the metalsmith workshop for the first time in a month. it was a sanctuary: i forgot about all responsibilities in reality(mindless bliss) for about an hour. it took three hours to filter all thoughts of responsibilities out of my consciousness in order to get to that blissful place of pure artmaking.
